No matter what, you are not to blame for what happened. The person who assaulted you—that person alone—is responsible for his or her actions.
In the face of danger, our bodies go on “auto pilot” and we often do not make conscious choices about how to respond. Whether or not you were able to fight back in the moment, you are not to blame for the rape. Physically surviving a sexual assault means you did what you needed to do to survive.
You may be experiencing any number of the reactions you will read about on this website. Or you may feel very little at all—you may feel numb. These reactions are normal and, in most cases, temporary. Symptoms may be worse when reminded of the assault or on the anniversary date of the assault.
Your view of the world may have changed. Your relationships are affected. Your faith may be challenged. Remember that you experienced a tremendous loss and a period of grief is normal. Healing takes time and there is no one “right way” to heal.
Please know that there are people willing to listen when you are ready. You can call BRCC’s crisis line any time, day or night, to talk. And if you decide you want to see a professional, our counselors are here for you. You are not alone.